Yep, you read it right, I’m fasting from online shopping! Starting May 1, 2017, I will not be purchasing clothing of any sort online….. As you can imagine, every single emotion is running through my mind and body right now; fear, anxiety, stress, sweat, blood, tears, sadness, anger, frustration, excitement and above all, MADNESS! I’m total wreck. HAHA! I’m half kidding, it’s not that bad. Honestly, more than anything, I’m relieved.
I’ve been wanting to do this for a while now but I’ve been fighting it. I’ve been feeling major conviction lately and I’m ready to be obedient to what I’m hearing. This may sound crazy, but I really feel the Lord is taking me in a new direction. Not only is my online shopping problem distracting me from my daily priorities, but it’s taking time away from my responsibilities as a wife and mom. I can become so enveloped in style and the next purchase I want to make, I tend to block out what’s happening around me. It’s also keeping me from a close relationship with Jesus. I find myself in a rush to finish my devotional in the morning and I’m just not in the Word and prayer as much as I ‘d like. I should note, this is not based off guilt, but the honest feeling of conviction that online shopping is keeping me from mentally, emotionally and physically being present for my family and God. I’m a firm believer that if something doesn’t feel right, IT’S NOT! I’ve spent more money last year on clothes and useless items then ever before in my life, and what for?! It’s time to reel it in and get back to reality.
As you read, this is a fast from online shopping, not brick and mortar. Because lets be honest, that’s practically impossible! We live in a small town so the shopping here is next to nothing anyway! 😉 Although I will give myself a small budget (I’m thinking $100 a month max) to purchase things I see in store, for the most part, the next 30 days (or more) will be dedicated to restyling items in my closet and of course sharing them with you, being more present with my kids and husband and also spending more quality time with God. As I journey through the next 30 days, I will be journaling what my experiences are like and I’ll be sharing if I screw up and honest emotions I’m feeling. I’m trying to get all of my supplements etc ordered before I start, that way I will have no excuse why I had to hit the ‘submit payment’ button, but the intention is to not purchase clothing online. I pray I have the strength to get online only to check emails and do the work I need to do for my blog. I’m hoping this journey not only allows more focused attention on the important people in my life, but that it can help other women out there who also may struggle with always “wanting more”. Being content is something I will always strive for, the feeling of wanting more is flooding more and more women’s minds everyday. With social media and all of the pretty shiny things in our face 24/7, it’s hard to be 100% content in our lives, whether it’s our bodies, homes, cars, clothes, you name it. Can I get a WIT-NESS?!!!
Now, with all of this said, I am not in any way discouraging anyone from shopping online, this is simply a conviction I’m personally feeling. I will still link all items (or similar ones if mine are ‘older’) but I hope it will also give you an idea on how to restyle items in your wardrobe and also provide more affordable items to purchase. Outside of these next 30 days (or more if I can do it!) I will never completely stop shopping online, but I’m seeking BALANCE as an end result of this journey.
Thank you so much for reading and your support!