Juggling four kids, a house renovation, starting a blog, trying to keep up with silly social media for my blog, doing hair on the side and trying to be a wife all at the same time is SO. MUCH. WORK! I know I can’t complain, we are blessed beyond belief, and the fact that I have been given the opportunity to be a wife and mother is the biggest blessing of all, but sometimes I just want to crawl in bed, put a little pillow mask on and sleep for a couple of days….I mean, CAN I GET A WITNESS?! I swear, if it’s not the Louie (my really cute and annoying puppy) tearing off the drywall (seriously) and chewing up all of Hudson’s toys and favorite stuffed animals, it’s Hudson drawing all over the walls, peeing and pooping on the floor because he won’t keep a diaper on, and climbing everything he possibly can. Or it’s my teenage son teasing the dogs and the two year old, and the fact I can’t get him off the computer, iPad, or any electronics he gets his hands on. Or it’s my 11 going on 25 year old sweet and sassy daughter who wants to argue with EVERYTHING I say, or for that matter, everything ANYONE says! Or it’s our 9 year old who says he doesn’t have any homework but he has piles of it missing and his teacher thinks we’re a bunch of clueless dumbos because he isn’t turning his HW in and we had NO clue!! Oh I’m exhausted writing this! But giggling at the same time because at the end of every exciting, fun filled, circus of a day, it’s pretty comical! Sometimes I wish I could be a fly on my own wall.
The point of this post isn’t to focus on the negative side of life and parenting, but to focus on all of the blessings and comfort the Lord provides. I’ve been going through horrible anxiety and fear lately and it’s wearing me down. I’ve had horrible images and dreams replay in my mind that I can’t seem to shake. I’ve been in deep prayer and it’s the only way I’ve been able to function. I’m constantly worried that something is going to happen to my children and husband, and especially Hudson. I’ve struggled with this for years, and it’s only dramatically increased since Hudson was born. As soon as I feel like I’ve overcome this nonsense, it comes back to haunt me worse than ever. I seriously had a dream the other night that Hudson fell off an 8 story building! What the crap is that all about?! I said in a previous Sunday Seven that the enemy only comes to steal, kill and destroy, and it’s obvious that he’s hard at work with me. Fear and anxiety are my down fall and he knows it. But, instead of focusing on every fear I have, I want to focus on Gods word and His promises. God’s word acts as an armor, a shield of protection against the enemy and it’s so important that we know this and use it. It doesn’t mean we won’t have down falls, it doesn’t mean we won’t experience fear, hurt, anger, anxiety or even depression, but God promises to be by our side through it ALL. Our only job is to turn to Him. Sometimes we forget or become too prideful and think we can conquer it all, but the truth is, we CAN’T. Believe me, I’ve tried! And I still try from time to time, but ultimately I fail because I’m not strong enough to do it on my own.
This Sunday, I want to focus on His promises. Promises that have helped me cope with fear and anxiety, post-partum depression, and the challenging obstacles we all face in life. Here are some that I’ve found comforting and my goal is to meditate on them, remember them and store them in my heart, soul and mind so I don’t forget, even in the toughest of times, that He is all I need to make it through.
- ‘…Truly, truly, I say to you, if you ask the Father for anything in My name, He will give it to you.’- John 16:23 NASB This is such a simple but powerful reminder that we are to ask God for the things we need. Whether it’s for peace of mind, or protection over our family, or provision for a specific thing. It also doesn’t mean we will get what we ask for if it’s not His will or the right timing. We remind our kids that it doesn’t mean when you ask God for a new toy or for someone to like you, it’s going to happen! But how can we expect God to work in our lives when we don’t turn to Him?
- ‘… not one word failed of all His good promise..’- 1Kings 8:56 NASB God doesn’t fail and His promises never fail
- ‘So do not fear; you are more valuable than many sparrows’ Matthew 10:31 NASB In the New Testament, Jesus mentions several times not to have fear, but to have FAITH.
- God has not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. 2 Timothy 1:7 KJV I mentioned this in my previous Sunday Seven and I had to repeat it. This is one of my favorite scriptures of all time. I say it all of the time, sometimes 100 times a day.
- ‘…for the Lord has heard my weeping. The Lord has heard my supplication, the Lord receives my prayer.’ – Psalms 6:8-9 NASB I love reading Psalms at night. I don’t know why, but a lot of my anxiety and worries happen at night and I find Psalms to be really comforting, like this passage.
- ‘Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort’…- 2 Corinthians 1:3 The rest of this verse goes on to say that we are to comfort others as we have been comforted by the Lord in our times of affliction. I love that this takes the focus off of ourselves and tells us to reach out to others too.
- The Lord is near. Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.- Philippians 4:5-8 I have to say, every single time I come across this scripture I am overwhelmed with peace. I just take a deep breath and take in this truth.
I love re-reading all of these passages. It really helps bring me back to a place of peace and reminds me of the importance to be in His word. The comfort and peace of God surpasses all comprehension, how incredible is that?! Today, I’m thankful for Gods word and the daily reminder of His love and mercy, and His will to fill us with His overwhelming peace.
I hope you all had a blessed Valentines Day!