For those of you who follow me on IG, you may have seen that we celebrated my oldest son Austin for graduating 8th grade yesterday and boy let me tell you, it was NOT easy! It was so surreal watching him banter with his buddies, receive his certificate and accept the fact that my little boy is off to high school (and he’s almost 15! WHAT?!) … I don’t share too much about my kids on here because I want to respect their privacy but today is an exception and I thought it would be fun to get a little more personal and share some of my journey with my first born.
Austin has always had such a funny sense of humor and vivid imagination. When he was in 1st grade (which seems like yesterday) he told his teacher that we were in a plane crash and he was bitten by a rabid squirrel, and his teacher believed him haha! Then in second grade he brought a small condiment bottle filled with various liquids including hot sauce, milk and pond water to school for show and tell and told his class that it was venom he “milked” from a Gila Monster! His teacher knew it was probably just a story but she called me to tell me that I had to come in and personally pick up his show and tell item because she had to lock up his ‘venom’ just in case. He was such a little character!
When Austin was 4 or 5 years old he would visit the Army recruiters in the mall and collect key chains etc and since then he has talked about joining the military. At one time he wanted to be a scientist or a marine biologist, another time a video game creator and as of a few years ago he considered being an engineer (yes, yes and yes please!) but he always goes back to wanting to join the military. I keep hoping and praying that Austin changes his mind again, but I know that God will be with him and protect him on whatever path he chooses.
I was 17 when I found out I was pregnant with Austin (surprise!). I turned 18 shortly after that and married my high school sweetheart. I graduated high school married and 8 months pregnant, as you can imagine, that was the hardest year of my high school experience. When Austin was almost 3 and EllaBleu 1, their dad and I divorced. Our lives changed dramatically seemingly over night and I went from being a stay at home mom to working full time, sometimes 6-7 days a week. It was just the 3 of us for 7 years before I met Matt. I’m so thankful for those years and memories we had together when I was a single mom. Even though Gods plan isn’t necessarily for broken families and heartache, He can always use any situation for His greater good and I always knew He had a better plan for me. Austin taught me a love I never knew existed and prepared me to be a mother to 2 more children and a step son (I didn’t see that coming!). Because I was so young when I had Austin (and EllaBleu) I felt in a sense that we grew up together and because of that we will always have a special bond. Every day I look at this tall young man I can’t believe God gave me the privilege to be his mom and he continues to teach me more and more everyday (like patience! 😉 ). I admire his courage, his strength and the fact that he dives so deeply into any and every passion he has at the time whether it’s a foreign culture or video game 🙂 I’m forever changed because of this sweet boy.
Thank you so much for reading!