This morning Matt took Hudson to church and I decided to stay home to have some quiet time to read my devotionals and bible and get on here to write a post. As I was getting Hudson dressed we had a conversation that went like this: Hudson- “Mama, who’s in your heart?” Me- “Jesus” Hudson- “and God…..” Me- “Yes!” Hudson- ” Nailed it.” Hahaha! This boy never seizes to amaze me or make me laugh, the things that come out of his mouth are a constant reminder of how much he hears and absorbs the things around him. ( Which reminds me that the movie we watched last night was really not appropriate for a 5 year old! #fail ) This has nothing to do with the topic of this post but it was too cute not to share!
Lately the topic of ‘bearing good fruit’ as been on my mind… a LOT. And of course I read about it this morning again. Isn’t it funny how that happens? I’ve actually been on this kick for a while it seems. When I got my new car (2 years ago) I ordered an “In God We Trust” license plate that I had personalized and reads JST LUV. When I ordered it was so excited to have a personalized plate and I wanted to shout from the roof “JUST LOVE!!!!!!” but shortly after I got it in the mail and put it on my car I was actually really nervous to be driving around with this very noticeable, bright blue license plate. I started thinking about the people in our town that may not like me and what they will say, or some might say ‘practice what you preach’ because I don’t “JST LUV” all of the time, who does?! And what will the people who use to see me partying downtown in my 20’s think and say?!!!!! ….. Oh, and when I cut someone off in traffic they will for sure judge me and hate my guts and always know who I am because of my Jesus ‘just luv’ license plate! Man, I can really get my mind going if I let it. I know we shouldn’t care about that others think but don’t we all at times worry about it? Well, it’s too late and this is my license plate and it’s still what I believe and really try to live by, haha! 🙂
When we go through life with love being a priority, most often times we’ll bear good fruit. But its not just love that we need to put at the top, it’s honesty, joy, peace and kindness to name a few. Our words and actions bear fruit. Often times I fall into a slump and I actually have to work at being a happy person. Up until a few yeas ago I was all around a happy, joyful person and almost always pretty positive, but lately I’ve found that I have to really work at being joyful. I can’t pinpoint exactly what happened that has made me feel this way, but I think a lot if it has been big changes in my life, good changes, amazing changes, but MAJOR changes and I’m still adjusting to my role as a wife and stay at home mom (I was a single, working mom for 7+ years and was totally ok with all of it). So as much as I preach to my kids to be joyful and full of love, I know it’s not always easy, in fact, it’s very very difficult at times. It’s truly not realistic to say we need to always bear good fruit and be a good person, we all make mistakes and I know I will again, but what if we all lived with that intention? Jesus said a tree is known by its fruit and “For out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks” Matthew 12:41 ESV. This verse always convicts me (not condemns!) to really think about the words I speak and thoughts I think. If we don’t hold ourselves accountable who will?? And when we are focused on bearing good fruit, we won’t have to look to other people for it. What I mean is when I’m in the space of loving and finding opportunities to help others, I’m not consumed by the feelings of needing to feel love and affirmation, I feel so much more fulfilled when I’m giving. I think of the picture of Jesus going around helping and healing people, and preaching and loving His disciples, He was raw and maybe somewhat brutally honest, but always so full of love, every thing He did He did with the intention of love. He washed sinners feet for pete’s sake! I can’t say I’m humble enough to wash some strangers feet, yuck! He also never said life would be easy, He never said we wouldn’t go through tough times, in fact He said we would experience hardships because we love Him and follow Him, but He also promised eternity and everlasting love. Jesus didn’t make any mistakes and it’s hard for me to relate, but I really love looking to Him as an example of someone who had so much self control. His example of focusing on serving God and others, rather than Himself, always puts things into perspective for me.
Today I’m finding peace in knowing that God knows my heart and intentions and that He also knows we all make mistakes, and when we lay them at His feet, at the cross, He forgets our sin. I hope you all to rest in the truth of Gods word and promises <3
Thank you for reading and I look forward to your comments and thoughts below!