Yesterday I learned that a sweet friend of mine suddenly passed away. We weren’t close but had known each other for many years. We worked together, went to cosmetology school together and I know some of her family; siblings and nieces and nephews. She was a bright light, a beautiful soul and her smile could make your day better. I wish I had spent more time with her…..
SO many questions run through our minds when tragedy strikes. Where is God when this happens? Why did this happen? Death (especially sudden and tragic death) puts so many things into perspective. All of the things that I worry about and think about day to day don’t seem to matter much when things like this occur. I feel I’ve had a lot of conviction lately about the time I spend on things that don’t matter; the things I allow to take up so much space in my mind. I take for granted the blessings that surround me, the beautiful fall leaves, the sound of the breeze in the trees, the beauty of the sky, the smell of cool crisp mornings, the sound of my children’s laughter and the smile on my husbands face after dessert. These things are easy to miss but also so easy to be thankful for…. But are we ever really thankful for our struggles? The struggles in our marriages that ultimately make us stronger together and/or individually, the struggle of raising teenagers (because that is on a whole new level of struggle!), the struggle through traffic and loud noises, the inconveniences that we face daily? It’s so hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel sometimes and it’s so hard to find peace in chaos. But if we can try and see the positive in the negative, if we can try and look at our struggles as potential strengths, then maybe, just maybe, we can find comfort when tragedy strikes. Even if it’s just comfort in knowing God has a plan.
My sweet friends memory will forever be engrained in my brain, I will always think about how I could have been a better friend. I know she is in Heaven rejoicing and dancing with Jesus for eternity. I’m thankful for the time I spent with her, for having the pleasure to know her sweet beautiful soul and for the opportunity for seeing the amazing love she had for her nieces and nephews. Please come along side me in prayer for her sweet family, for comfort and peace during this time, I can’t even imagine what they are feeling. I pray for all of you who have experienced loss and heartache in the most unimaginable ways.
ALL MY LOVE
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